Take a deep breathe

I can't imagine this year going any better.

Kuaui was absolutely amazing. Everyday I spent their was so surreal -like, I was ACTUALLY in Hawaii..ME..of all people. I am so grateful for the opportunity to have been offered, and glad that it was taken. Every morning I had: half a bagel with pb/j, a hand fulling blueberries and raspberries -one day i had strawberries too.

The trip turned out to be more than just a vacation, I think. It was such a learning experience. Even the minutest detail in the scenery...you can't help but watch and breath. I could watch the ocean for hours, and never get bored.

I learned how to surf, which made me feel so good about myself. If I can picture -in my mind- myself surfing, then I CAN surf. Its all about focus. Spot a wave; straighten out your board; peddle; peddle faster; 1; 2; up. I realized if maintain this mind set of seeing what I want in my mind, I can be fearless. Thus, I've abolished my fear of drowning; I don't have to be afraid of the water anymore.

The lifestyle in Kuaui is the polar opposite of what I see myself living in 10 years. The beach vs the city. Catching a wave vs starting a career. It's all something to think about. I am so jealous of the kids that live there, but not the Hippies. I still want the life I've been dreaming of the last 2 years. But imagine doing what ever you want when you want with no care in the world, and the ocean by your side. I feel like it's almost wasteful, but beautiful at the same time.

There are so many more better things in life than what you look like, or the clothes you where. We are all so much better than that. I think I'm beginning to value life itself than the materialism it consists of.

Ke'e beach

Queen's Bath. There have been 28 reported drownings here. It's also the view we get from the backyard of the house.